At first being anorexic is awesome. You can be thin and everyone wants to be like you. There’s this high you get from being able to control your hunger.
And the hunger … the emptiness in your stomach. You get addicted to that feeling. It actually makes you feel good about yourself.
At first the weight loss is great. You feel so good about yourself because you’re losing weight. But then it’s like it doesn’t matter anymore. It doesn’t feel good. And every time you look in the mirror you hate yourself.
It gets really tiring. Sometimes you just want to lay down and never wake up. Because you’re so tired … tired of thinking about food all day … tired of hiding from people … just … plain … tired.
Recovery may take time, but I believe in it.
I don’t know why this quote helps me so much “Being obsessed with weight is too cliche”
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